last night 2yo and 7 mo were both up at 5am! i was so sleepy that i couldn’t see which one is in front of me

the first one is having her last teeth coming out and the second one is just uncomfortable from her bowel motion. she had full diaper in the middle of night

after an hour of struggling, i finally woke up in my mind. i said to myself; this is just sleep depravation! i’ve had worst one! thankfully that are both healthy and not having bronchitis or sick nasty thing

at 5 am when i lost hope of putting them to bed, i called jonathan to help me. he was working and immediately joined the party! i asked him since when are u up, he answered, since half past midnight!

i was shocked. another all nighter! he said im not ok, too much thoughts and stress for his suddenly dead laptop and all projects and assignments of his study which the dead line are this weekend, the computer hard disk which is locked and the key that are lost!!!

in my mind i started to blame him why you didn’t save the finished assignment and as this thoughts started i stopped my self! blame dose not help! questioning and putting him to court dose bot bring anything. this is a pure mistake + bad luck.

i have listened to him. tried to stay focus and do not contradict him. its hard but possible. he talked and asked for freedom to feel deeply frustrated.

we separated kids from each other. i pit the first one to bed and then i took 2nd one from him. by 6:30 the kids both spelt and i was finally free to sleep. i said bye to him and passed out!